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This is going to be such a different posts compared to my usual laid back posts. More of ranting though...

To work with smart people is a great thing. They have great ideas, initiatives and are able to materialize many ideas. However, the downside to it is that they become too self-centered. Within a project, there are sub-committees and these sub-committees are supposed to work together so that we can produce our final product as one main committee. More often than not, the sub-committees will rely a lot on each other so as to produce a coherent final product. Thus, any changes within a sub-comm would affect other sub-comms. Supposed that your sub-comm is the main idea of the project and other sub-comms will need to complement you, the more the other sub-comms will have to work together with you. You tell us your idea and we try our best to complement you, but you criticise our ideas. Well, that is a given, to criticise each other such that we can improve together. Then, you suddenly changed your plans and expect us to fit with you with such short notice. Fine, these things are inevitable, plans do fail and changing them are very common. So we come up with some ideas and you decide to criticize us again. I am not saying that you cannot criticize, but do you really mean it? You just happily decided to say "it may look weird" but when we asked you to explain, you can't really say anything to substantiate your point. You question all the technical stuff that that we as sub-comm ICs are in-charged of. Are you trying to say that we as sub-comm ICs can't handle? You expect others to suit your idea and not try to compromise. When you came up with your initial plan, we had some ideas to complement but you just thought our ideas are not in sync with yours. We also questioned your initial plans but give some suggestions and you choose to ignore them. Now that you realised that your initial plan can't work anymore, you suddenly switched plans and tell us that we have to scrape our ideas. To me, it feels like you have your own idea and you feel so strongly about your ideas and so everyone else must follow you. You do not just comment for fun. When we asked if you have other suggestions to our ideas to complement your new plans, you can even utter a word. So do you genuinely want to feedback or just want to criticize for the fun of it? Then you go on to say that we should reduce the things that we do even the teachers feel that we should do more. To be extreme, your attitude just makes me feel that you are worried that our ideas will outdo yours and thus explaining your behavior. I dun noe about your all, but all i feel is that as one main comm, we should help each other as much as possible. We encouraged you and even gave suggestions to add on to you idea without being a wet-blanket and yet what you only do is criticize. I do not feel that warm feeling of working in a group.

Another thing is that you think you are always right. What gives you the right to say someone is weird? I maybe listening to you and nodding my head when you talk about someone else behind their backs and say that they are weird, but the truth is, i am disappointed in you to almost the point that i despise you.

Seriously, you don't think you can say things so easily. I may always be laughing and look like those happy-go-lucky kind of person. But you seriously do not want to test my patience. I have made guys cry before and you do not want that to happen to you.

But then again, maybe i am just not good enough that i cannot think of nice ideas...

I shud sleep more.

The past week had been a crazy one. Average time that i left school for home last week is 7pm, with latest leaving school at 10pm and earliest at 5pm. There was also one day where I had like 4 consecutive meetings in a row after school. After each day I was so shag that I could not do any work but just get knocked out before 11pm. I think i also old liao, cannot stay up late like last time. Haiz old liao old liao.

Not only that luh, there was so much work to do last week, ranging from the basic tutorials for EACH subject to PW Eom to council stuff (like all my council work chionging at me at one go cus the deadlines for BOTH my standing and working comm work are like by these 2 months). What makes things worst is the stupid PE module that my class suay suay get (dance, which is quite boring) need to do a presentation and if we dun, we will get demerit points-.- The teachers just dun get it sia. They make it sound easy, "u need to start the work I give you NOW". But what they dun realise is EVERY teacher is saying the same thing so if everyone wants me to do the work NOW, which exactly do i do NOW?

My block test results are also pure rubbish. But even I have such shitty results, I still dun have the motivation to study. Maybe I am just too tired to even care... Just when I thought my classmates results were good, I realised there are a lot more where that came from from other classes. I am like super below average. I noe I need to work, but my inertia to study just gets bigger and bigger. Maybe it is also partially because I have become more stupid due to the lousy sleeping habits I have in the past...

But on the brighter side, I got to slack on Sat. Went to watch HP 7 part 2 (i swear i am not going to go watch a movie if I think i am going to be late again, so rush and difficult to find seats when it is so dark...) Then slacked around in plaza sing, before going to the railway track at KAP. I dunno why 6H ppl like the railway track so much, but oh wells, it does not really matter to me where we go, just being able to slack will be good enough for me.

So Sun I had to chiong my econs project (redo cus the teacher did not get the right file from my friend) until I forgot to sleep. LOL YES I DID IT AGAIN (although it is like detrimental to my health and will cut my life by dunno how long). So now my eyes stings and are closing liao... So I shall end hereeeeee